There comes a point where you miss someone so much that you can hear their voice echo in your head and you can hear the names that they used to call you; the words they used to tell you. You memorized their laugh, their smile and their silly ways. You can also feel their arms around you and you don’t want to let go even though you know that it’s just an illusion. Every time your phone rings, you smile because it’s them that’s calling you. Every time you hear their name, your heart beats a hundred times faster and sometimes, you can’t even breathe. You knew that looking back on the tears would make you laugh but you never knew that looking back on the laughs would also make you cry. And all you would want is to go back in time. Not to the time that you first met, to the time that you were known as nothing but strangers. But no matter what, you’re in denial. You hide your feelings, so no one would know. You put on a fake smile and don’t let a single tear break through. You’re so used to hiding your feelings that you don’t even realize the pain you’re causing for yourself. Your thoughts become invisible. It’s still there, but no one knows. Like a love letter you didn’t show. And you’re hurting no one but yourself.

 
its nights like this that are the worst. You stay up all night, & can’t get yourself to fall asleep, so all you do is think. Think about everything. Everything that you have been through in your life. And as always, it’s mostly the bad things that stand out the most. You reminisce the good times you’ve had with people that no longer exist in your life. You think about how much happier you used to be & how everything was better before. It’s nights like this when you realize just how lonely you are, and how you wish that things would be alright for once.

I’ll screw up. I’ll push you away if were getting too close. I won’t trust you until you’ve proven yourself. I get hurt easily & take a lot of things personally. But I’ll love you with everything I have & if that isn’t enough, then I’m not worth it.

Want to know something? The time I was with you was the happiest I’ve been in a long time. That’s part of the reason it’s so hard to get over you and move on, because you were such a significant part of my life and the thought of losing you killed me.Now I feel like I’m never going to be happy again, at least not as happy as I was with you. To tell you the truth, I’d give anything to get back that time, even go through the hurt again.

I’ve learned that nothing is ever the same for too long and to expect the unexpected. I’ve learned who true friends are those who aren’t worth the tears. I’ve learned to stand for what I believe in and for what I want. I’ve learned to hold my head high and take whatever life throws my way in stride.


Most girls say they want a fairy tale, but you taught me that it’s not really what I want. I want someone who will make fun of me and laugh at my jokes even if they aren’t funny; someone that wrestles with me and doesn’t let me win just because I’m a girl. Yeah, riding off into the sunset on a white horse would be nice, but playing thumb war with you seems much better.

Bad stuff does happen sometimes. Always remember that, but remember that you have to move on, somehow, you just pick up your head and stare at something beautiful like the sky, or the ocean, and you’ll move on.